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i started out strong on the first post, i think.  so i think this is me telling you that the vulnerability only goes deeper from here. unsure how deep or what topics i’ll talk about just yet.  i just needed a space to write. & yes, any normal person would use a private journal but for some reason i want it to be public.  something someone else can read and be like “oh yeah this person has just as many emotions and is a frequent overthinker just like me.”  so here i am.  i honestly think i have been wanting to do this for the past fifteen years or so.  honestly, ever since i read my first tumblr post & trust me i have started a many a blog and never shared because vulnerability is insanely scary.  it’s like stripping your clothes off in a very public place where the vibe really isn’t to strip or be naked & everyone’s watching like “what’s wrong with this person?” & some people resume to their coffees or meals with a perplexed look & others are intrigued but don’t quite know why and can’t turn away, even if they wanted to and then there are those who are cheering for you, like standing on the tables cheering.  those are the ones who feel just like you or know you and love you and just want to see you succeed.  i think those are the ones that made me finally say “fuck it, i’m doing it.  i’m taking off my clothes.” (in a writing sense, of course) anyways, thanks for being here.  go do something good today.

l, js